We met with the medical director to go over all of our 11 procedures from the work up to hear his suggestions for next steps. I thought he was going to put me on some medicine that would try to regulate my ovulation just like my other doctor did. I had in my head that I was completely fine and healthy and I would just get pregnant very soon with no problem! He explained that since everything came back normal the only thing to really do to be sure there is nothing wrong in my reproductive system is to literally go in and look. I thought to myself, Um, what? He explained that his suggestion for next step would be to have a laparoscopy which is an exploritory surgery to look around for things like endometriosis, fallopian tube phalangies stuck together, scar tissue etc. Instantly I thought to myself, ok, maybe I have a little bit of this "endo" or my little tube ends are stuck together, lets do this and have him fix me and I will be pregnant in no time! However, I was BEYOND SCARED!!! The only surgery I have ever had is a tonsilectomy in 2001. He suggested that I begin taking birth control pills to be sure I DON'T GET PREGNANT before my surgery...oh was this hard!!! So, I want to be pregnant but I can't but now I am going to take BIRTH CONTROL to be sure I don't get pregnant???? All I could think was "what if THIS was THE month I would have gotten pregnant and here I am popping birth control pills!!!" This is when the depression began.......I scheduled my surgery for October 3rd and left the office.
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